She was so afraid
To take the next step
She may fall
Born- over flexible
Now her blood boils pain
She was so afraid
To dare to walk out of the door
Leave her safe haven
Dare present her gift.
But, would very easily expose her soul
Hoping to be filled
With love
That never did stay.
She was so afraid
You’d never know
Pulled
So deep- the urge- an addicts
To scream, writhe, weep.
Emptiness-lives in a box somewhere within her heart
She hides a never ending darkness
That claims to be the truth
Endless rabbit holes cover the floor
She’s built doors to
Better to avoid
Better find distraction
Create some kind of way to cope
Look away
She was so afraid
That she was Alice, the cat, the hatter and the rabbit
Maybe she dug the hole she’d fall to
A maze she signed a contract to loose to
A dream
She was so afraid
To accept no answer
& believe she had some kind of control
Connected to a higher power
A love
She felt devoid of
Faking feeling
Life- so black and white
She was so afraid
In trying she’d fall harder
But a falls a fall…?!
Her body- already pulled apart
A struggle to live under gravity
In paradox
She was so afraid
In shining she’d forget the dark
Ignorant
But it was all consuming
So maybe, she wanted to fly
And was afraid to find
In fact- the call she felt was unachievable, that
She was not invincible
*Wanted to stay invisible
*Safe*
So, she did not have to be afraid
But, she was so afraid
Of forces beyond- lame
Of the Magic that seeps at the seems- available to tame
Within to wield
From Darkness- a match
An infinite wave
An ocean to hold
What if they pulled her down and she drowned of her one true love- her air- Head under water
Gills gone, Weighted anchor
Let me be fish food
Reborn with amnesia
Gut calls- stirring in
Poison- Help.
She was so afraid
& Lay her head in surrender
To death
All calm is here
And she watched the fairies dance upon her ripples
Seeing glimmers
Past ablaze- Of all to come.
We’re all afraid.
The Pollyanna Principle 